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27 August 2010

Weekend #3, 1300 miles

This is the third in my series of travel posts and probably the ONLY time you'll see pictures on this blog.
After I got back from Colorado, I had three days to rest.
Rest, do laundry and pack for the next trip.
My cousin was getting married the following weekend.
520 miles away from here. And about 20 miles from our hotel.
This amounted to LOTS more driving.

But there were cool things to look at.
We made dad turn around and go back to take pictures of these metal dudes.
And the bridge just happened to be on the detour we took due to an accident on the freeway.

The wedding was beautiful - those pictures will come on the photo blog soon-ish, probably.

The 27hrs driving time in three days? Not so awesome. 
Especially not with my parents in the car.

26 August 2010

Memories

Today we had training.

It was held in the high school gym.
My high school.
Years of memories came flooding back.
Memories of good times, yes.

But memories of bad times as well.
Memories of the classmates who tormented.
Memories of the boys who harassed.
Memories of the girls who bullied.

Memories I had finally, really moved on from.
Until I stepped into that gym.
When they came back.
And hit hard.

If I never walk back into that room, it'll be just fine with me.

24 August 2010

Struggle

I think it's fair to say that I'm struggling.

I'm sad.
I'm lonely.
I'm stressed.

And there is nothing I can do about it right now.
I want nothing more than to run away for a day, a night, a weekend.
I can't even pay my bills, so that's not an option.

I'm going to miss Breast Cancer Awareness Day in Oakland.
And that hurts the worst.
If only I could figure out a way to make it for very little money.
Doesn't seem likely.

This is not the post I planned to write.
But it's what came.
So it's what is being posted.

18 August 2010

Another weekend, another drive. 1200 miles.

I had no desire to leave this behind.
None.
It made for a long, very sad drive home.

I know that I'll be back, unfortunately not with the job I was sure I would have by now.


See the blue skies?
See the beauty?

The minute I crossed into my home state it did three things.
1. Started pouring.
2. My car decided the hill was too steep and wouldn't maintain it's cruise control.
3. My cellphone lost service.

I almost turned around and went back.
I wasn't happy to be there and apparently it was happy I was there either.

My next planned trip is October.
I miss my kids.
I miss their mom, aunts, uncles and grandma.
I miss my friends.
I would give ANYTHING to be with them now.